Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Sigma Theta Chi

I am proud to say I AM A SIGGIE :)

What a long road the last six weeks have been!

What I learned was : GOD IS ALWAYS IN CONTROL :)

Here is some pictures from my first Day as A SIGGIE :)

My Big Kenli made sure we got a picture of me repin' the EOX. Kenli and Heather have been such an incredible blessing to me.

You can spot me everywhere NOW!

Precious Katie Beth. I JUST LOVE HER

My roommate, best friend, constant support and Siggie Sister!

My sweet Kojie Friends!

One of the MOST beautiful people I know Ms. Farren! I LOVE YOU TO DEATH

Sarah. obsessed. nuff said.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Blessings in Disguise.

OH goodness. Since my last post my life has been a roller coaster of emotion. I am usually not this "emotional" but pledging has done some crazy stuff to me. Let me start from the beginning

1. ANATOMY. One simple word that can suck the fun out of any conversation. I am failing that class. big time HA. So I was talking to my advisor about dropping it and seeing how it affects my major all together and trying it next semester. She told me I have to be passing to drop it. Well... not sure how that is going to happen (but keep reading). Dropping this one lousy class will also put me behind a semester in school, which will add a whole year onto my college. (kinda sucky, kinda okay? I don't really wanna grow up anyways).

2. MY PLAN. I soon realized that my "college" plan is NOT my plan. It is GODS, and EVERYTHING I am doing is for the glory of HIM. Since Freshman year I have been pushing myself so hard to get these prerequisites done in 2 year. This has literally meant taking at least 17 or 18 hours a semester. For most of you who know me. School is not my strong suit anyways. So I am proud I have made it this far. HERE's the kicker. If I am waiting an extra semester before going to nursing school it means that I am only going to be taking 12 or 13 hours for the next 2 semesters (that will be fun) hahah ;) It also means that I can get a minor, which I am pretty passionate about. I am not sure in what yet, but I think it will be in bible or psychology! :)

3. GODS PLAN. God went ahead of me in everything. EVERYTHING. I went to talk to my anatomy teacher today, (remember I am failing it. quite badly) I tell her "I am struggling" and tell her I am probably going to have to drop the class (depending on if I can get into the one next semester). I tell her the only way I can drop it is if I am passing because the whole point is I don't want it to affect my GPA that I have worked so hard to keep high. She looks at me and tells me. "thank you for telling me this, I want you to know, If you end up having to drop I will drop you passing" .. OMG did she REALLY just say that? She did. BLESSING. AMEN HALLELUJAH, PRAISE JESUS! She will also let me sit through the rest of the semester and let me hear all of the lectures so that I can learn all of the information. Have I mentioned that GOD is in CONTROL and I am NOT.

4. HERE IS HOW IT ALL PLAYS OUT- IF I can get into my anatomy class next semester I will drop this one (unless God wants to let me get a B in it) :) Take it again next semester with organic chemistry (that will be a challenge as well). HAVE NO CLASSES THIS SUMMER (that sounds better then the 13 I took last summer.) Next fall I take 2 more prerequisite classes. get in nursing school in the spring. Going to nursing school in the spring will also spread out my classes more for the next 2 years and I will be another HUGE blessing. IF all of this works out, and I stay on campus next fall I want to try to be a officer in club. That is something I am passionate about and I feel like this is God giving me a chance to do it.

5. WHAT TO PRAY FOR- Pray for God's will. Whatever he wants to happen over the next 2 years let me see it clearly, let him open doors for me and close others. Pray that I ALWAYS remember that GOD is in control. Pray for pledging to end well (and quickly) so I can shift my focus a little more to school. Pray for a boy I went to High School with named Steven England, he has cancer and the treatments are not effective and his family is having to go through a really rough time right now. Pray.

THANK YOU for reading this. It has been heavy on my heart lately, and I really just want people to know that prayer does WORK.

Remaining Humbled by Him,

Monday, October 4, 2010

Oh my oh my oh my.

Well... 3 weeks into pledging and there is no other word to describe it except wonderful. If you are a part of the small army of people I called crying today you may ask why is it wonderful, you have had a HORRIBLE day... Here is the answer. It is wonderful because I have tons and tons of girls who will back me up no matter what. It is wonderful because it is what God has planned for me to do. It is wonderful because people are pushing me to my limits, breaking me down to see my true character. It is wonderful.

Although if you were to ask me at random times of the day if this process is wonderful I most certainly would say its not, but looking back over what has happened, the relationships that have come because of it, and the woman I think I am becoming is why this process is wonderful.

Over the past three weeks I have had to FULLY rely on God for all of my needs. If you know me at all you know I am a control freak and you know how in control I like to be of my life. (You think I would have given up on that mindset during my blood disorder but old habits die hard).

This verse has been so near and dear to my heart and I really believe that all of the girls in Squigs and Sigma Theta Chi strive to live by this verse... I know it is the club verse and I am not try to be cliche about it.... but it is really, really really a wonderful verse and usually we stop at verse 33.... but I have found such comfort in verse 34 as well:

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

I am so excited to see what is coming up for me in the next few weeks and months. I am striving to find joy in EVERYTHING I do.